It's funny. I used to want to be a famous actress when younger. I, in theory, failed/quit...but I have several friends who did have that dream come true. I won't name names but I will say they had very public fall outs under the pressure of fame. Now knowing I have ADHD I know I likely would have followed a similar if not worse fate and wouldn't be here writing. So approaching my writing...of course I want some recognition but I also need to be the kind of person that can sustain it and withstand harsh criticism. I don't know that I am there yet but I find as long as I keep meditating and doing rituals around not big aims but just daily strength I am feeling more and more comfortable with creating. So I am starting with me. Magik/metaphysics/manifesting whatever I think MAYBE only works as well as the mind behind it...or maybe should work that way or we could screw ourselves over. I don't know of it's always sabotage...maybe it's just "us" knowing deep down we aren't there yet??
And what I meant to add was I too want a simple life internally and externally but not so much that I'm isolated but not too much where I am overly celebrated and feel obligated to play a bigger game than I'm prepared to.
I think you have a well balance and seasoned perspective on the path. I would love to have the conversation on my podcast if you feel so inspired. You could share your Substack and thoughts on the path as you have above. Veru insightful and I think would be a good addition for the community. If this is somethign that interests you send me a message through my profile:
This is very profound. I was going to dive in with a comment, but I really need to think on this more. I'm marking it with this comment so I don't forget about it
I really resonate with this and have found myself in the same conflict of "success" or a simple life. As I get older I am veering more towards a simple life. I still have a lot of healing to do, and that takes enough of my time right now. Who knows, one day I might decide to shoot for the stars, but for now I'm happy in my simple life. Great article! Thanks for sharing.
I think the point of the quest is to find your equilibrium on the path which commonly requires undoing success fantasies. Thanks for sharing and reading.
This resonates. I feel drawn to share I believed I wanted to be seen and be in the spotlight, as I was when I was a kid. I was bottled up for a long time.
So I pushed myself a little bit at a time. Went on video, did collective readings that way, read poetry, etc. but in my bones, I felt something was off. I was sharing things I wanted to keep more sacred and to myself. I did it anyway, and something shifted over time.
I did all the things I was afraid of, what next? I learned that it was me that needed to see me.
I no longer felt the need to be seen, but was able to share because it felt good. I kept the sacred things more private.
Maybe it’s not one or the other, but a balance of both for you, too.
It's funny. I used to want to be a famous actress when younger. I, in theory, failed/quit...but I have several friends who did have that dream come true. I won't name names but I will say they had very public fall outs under the pressure of fame. Now knowing I have ADHD I know I likely would have followed a similar if not worse fate and wouldn't be here writing. So approaching my writing...of course I want some recognition but I also need to be the kind of person that can sustain it and withstand harsh criticism. I don't know that I am there yet but I find as long as I keep meditating and doing rituals around not big aims but just daily strength I am feeling more and more comfortable with creating. So I am starting with me. Magik/metaphysics/manifesting whatever I think MAYBE only works as well as the mind behind it...or maybe should work that way or we could screw ourselves over. I don't know of it's always sabotage...maybe it's just "us" knowing deep down we aren't there yet??
And what I meant to add was I too want a simple life internally and externally but not so much that I'm isolated but not too much where I am overly celebrated and feel obligated to play a bigger game than I'm prepared to.
I think you have a well balance and seasoned perspective on the path. I would love to have the conversation on my podcast if you feel so inspired. You could share your Substack and thoughts on the path as you have above. Veru insightful and I think would be a good addition for the community. If this is somethign that interests you send me a message through my profile:
https://substack.com/@zzennloren
Cool. I will reach out!!
Yay
This is very profound. I was going to dive in with a comment, but I really need to think on this more. I'm marking it with this comment so I don't forget about it
I really resonate with this and have found myself in the same conflict of "success" or a simple life. As I get older I am veering more towards a simple life. I still have a lot of healing to do, and that takes enough of my time right now. Who knows, one day I might decide to shoot for the stars, but for now I'm happy in my simple life. Great article! Thanks for sharing.
I think the point of the quest is to find your equilibrium on the path which commonly requires undoing success fantasies. Thanks for sharing and reading.
The paradox you name feels ancient, and yet very much of this moment. Beautifully explored
This resonates. I feel drawn to share I believed I wanted to be seen and be in the spotlight, as I was when I was a kid. I was bottled up for a long time.
So I pushed myself a little bit at a time. Went on video, did collective readings that way, read poetry, etc. but in my bones, I felt something was off. I was sharing things I wanted to keep more sacred and to myself. I did it anyway, and something shifted over time.
I did all the things I was afraid of, what next? I learned that it was me that needed to see me.
I no longer felt the need to be seen, but was able to share because it felt good. I kept the sacred things more private.
Maybe it’s not one or the other, but a balance of both for you, too.